Eating disorders report
-Just like skinny, there is no perfect. But of course, since we are all told that there is perfection, we try to achieve it. We want to be good enough for the world and everyone around us. Eating disorders usually, if not always, start with either feeling worthless or trying to fix everything in their lives. They want to fix everything, and they can't. With family problems, school problems, friend problems, or any other problems, you of course want to do whatever you can to fix it. When you cannot achieve that, you feel worthless.
Who am I?
who am I?
it's a constant battle
between right and wrong
who are you?
to try and tell me
who I am
nobody knows
they say it's hard
they say it's easy
who is right?
I just can't see
I don't understand
what you are saying
I hear words
but no meaning
who am I?
to believe you
you don't get it
even if you think you do
I can fool the world
I wish you could see
that this is a mask
not the real me
I ask for help
I push you away
I need you now...
and forever. stay with me.
who am I?
it's a constant battle
between right and wrong
who are you?
to try and tell me
who I am
nobody knows
they say it's hard
they say it's easy
who is right?
I just can't see
I don't understand
what you are saying
I hear words
but no meaning
who am I?
to believe you
you don't get it
even if you think you do
I can fool the world
I wish you could see
that this is a mask
not the real me
I ask for help
I push you away
I need you now...
and forever. stay with me.
who am I?
Beautiful
Recently, my best friend Tim Tincher gave me a CD with 81 songs on it. They were all great songs, but there is one that I really love. As I snapped into a selfish world that revolved around me, I was getting very unhappy. I turned on this song -- Beautiful by Christina Aguilera-- and i realized..... I am not like this. I do not need to be so sad. It is completely my choice. Music has changed my life many times in many ways. This time was an excellent change. I am so glad that my friend did this for me. I love you Tim.
xoxo Kelly
xoxo Kelly
Kelly
I am me.
I know I've said that many times
but now I can mean what I say.
2010 was a year full of discovering myself.
I went through three stages.
first stage: mom girl
I was bossy, disrespectful, judgemental.
I was childish and irresponsible.
second stage: nice girl
I grew out of the childishness.
I became more responsible.
I was nice.
I did not judge.
third stage: bad girl
I turned bad. I started making bad choices that need not be named.
sadly, the second and best stage was short lived.
tonight, I realized that I do not want to be like that. I don't want to be the bad example to my younger siblings. there are many people that look up to me and I don't want them to be like that.
I realized I was looking at the wrong role models for me. I need to be myself. not the attention whore everyone sees me as. I need to show everybody that I can be me and be perfect just the way I am.
I do not need to be the same as everybody else to be loved. to be loved, I realized I need to be me. I need to let the real me shine. in 2011, I will be amazing. I will shine and show everybody how unique I can be.
I know I've said that many times
but now I can mean what I say.
2010 was a year full of discovering myself.
I went through three stages.
first stage: mom girl
I was bossy, disrespectful, judgemental.
I was childish and irresponsible.
second stage: nice girl
I grew out of the childishness.
I became more responsible.
I was nice.
I did not judge.
third stage: bad girl
I turned bad. I started making bad choices that need not be named.
sadly, the second and best stage was short lived.
tonight, I realized that I do not want to be like that. I don't want to be the bad example to my younger siblings. there are many people that look up to me and I don't want them to be like that.
I realized I was looking at the wrong role models for me. I need to be myself. not the attention whore everyone sees me as. I need to show everybody that I can be me and be perfect just the way I am.
I do not need to be the same as everybody else to be loved. to be loved, I realized I need to be me. I need to let the real me shine. in 2011, I will be amazing. I will shine and show everybody how unique I can be.
I scream
I scream
I carve your name
Into the wall
I haven't eaten
Since you told me
That you don't love me
Why can't you
I carve love hurts
Into my legs
My stomach is growling
Because I refuse to eat
But I cut it off
By screaming
I carve your name
Into the wall
I haven't eaten
Since you told me
That you don't love me
Why can't you
I carve love hurts
Into my legs
My stomach is growling
Because I refuse to eat
But I cut it off
By screaming
In a haze
I was in a haze
It felt like 100 days
You pulled me out
Without a shout
You said you cared
When I was scared
You love me so
And now I know
That it's ok.
Onto another day.
It felt like 100 days
You pulled me out
Without a shout
You said you cared
When I was scared
You love me so
And now I know
That it's ok.
Onto another day.
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