Kelly

I am me.
I know I've said that many times
but now I can mean what I say.
2010 was a year full of discovering myself.
I went through three stages.
first stage: mom girl
I was bossy, disrespectful, judgemental.
I was childish and irresponsible.
second stage: nice girl
I grew out of the childishness.
I became more responsible.
I was nice.
I did not judge.
third stage: bad girl
I turned bad. I started making bad choices that need not be named.
sadly, the second and best stage was short lived.
tonight, I realized that I do not want to be like that. I don't want to be the bad example to my younger siblings. there are many people that look up to me and I don't want them to be like that.
I realized I was looking at the wrong role models for me. I need to be myself. not the attention whore everyone sees me as. I need to show everybody that I can be me and be perfect just the way I am.
I do not need to be the same as everybody else to be loved. to be loved, I realized I need to be me. I need to let the real me shine. in 2011, I will be amazing. I will shine and show everybody how unique I can be.